.. im just t0tally screwed up ..

.. well.. i am here.. surrounded by people i don’t really know.. lets just say.. this is the same as the old days.. i’ve got no were to go.. nothing to do.. no one to hold on to.. i am so alone.. i hate my life.. i really don’t know Wat to write or Wat to say.. all i want to do is to cry.. shout.. cry out loud.. prang ang hi rap.. Hindi q nman alam kung anoh bang mhrap.. pero ang alam q.. hirap nah hirap nah q..

.. i dont know where else to go.. what else to do.. to bring back the real mhie.. yung dating aq.. wen everything’s normal just like wat it was before.. im so wasted.. i really dont have anything.. i dont even have anyone to.. i last felt this feeling wen i was only 7 yrs. old.. im at home,sa province.. actually.. i was’nt alone that particular day.. but i just feel like i am.. for those people who know me,can understand what i mean even i i dont type it here.. does moments are the times that i really felt that im alone in this world.. that im abandoned by my parents because of to much work.. i dont have a brother bcoz his always busy with his own stuff’s in life.. i dont have other relatives bcoz everybody just seem to be busy and not around when i really need someone.. during does times,i know i was’nt that mature but i know whats happening around me.. and wat other people are doing to me.. i feel like i wanna freak out.. i wanna cry out loud.. but when that moment arrives,i just stay still.. keep quite.. and even saying a word.. and after that,wen its dark and evryone’s sleeping.. i found myself sitting in my bed.. and cryng with the pillow on my mouth coz im controling my voice.. and that’s what i really do feel at this very moment.. also the other day.. also yesterday.. and so on.. i have a dramatic life,but hnd ganon kapancnin.. im such a jerk,am i?.. i dont need or want attention.. im the type of person who can survive a day without someone asking how am i.. wat i really want is someone who can share a time in their lives for me.. not because they need to or thats the right thing to do.. but just because.. they want to.. all i can say now.. my life’s a crap.. not because i choose it to be the way it was.. but because of the people that i’ve let to destroy it.. and just left it like the’ve just eaten a cup of ice cream.. after being satisfied and full loaded.. and seen another food.. they just throw the cup away.. alone.. and.. empty.. (T_T) ..